Weight Loss Blog 2: Behaving Badly

I will go ahead and quote my aunt Lisa (one of my few readers) for starters, "Now you're going to have to go back and tell everyone on your blog what you did". And she's right. I am definitely going to have to fess up to what's been done in the last few weeks.

I have been strategically avoiding the scale in my bathroom, trying to convince myself that it is "unhealthy" or wrong to weigh myself for it excites emotional problems and mental trauma and will basically set me back even further than I am now. I know in my heart of hearts, that this is a lie. A clever lie I have made up in order to not stand trial for the candies, cakes, sugary alcoholic beverages, and greasy fast food that I have consumed in the last few weeks. I was on Mardi Gras break gosh darnit! If that isn't a good time to eat crap then I don't know what is. Living in New Orleans can be SUCH a trial sometimes. A very....delicious and hedonistic trial. Except the whole point of Mardi Gras is to transition into Lent a day later, a Christian period of fasting and sacrifice. The mini Twix bar that I have just consumed moments ago can attest for the fact that I am not participating in Lent this year. Sorry Jesus. I'm a bad lady. I just wanted a little chocolate all right?

My original Lent sacrifice was going to be working out in addition to the walking to school everyday. Yeah....that has yet to happen. It's not that I don't want to...or that I am lazy...it's just that...I have been distracted by so many other things. So many many other nice things. For instance, the gorgeous hunk of man that walks me to school every morning, takes me on movie dates, and buys me sweets. Every time I look at my new boyfriend I think, "That's mine? How the hell is that mine? What did I do to deserve such a thoughtful, wonderful, smiley, sweet, gentle human being as my significant other?" And so I have been pleasantly preoccupied with all sorts of new relationship fun. It's not that my sweet boy doesn't support my healthy lifestyle. He does. He's offered to go work out with me, I cook healthy meals for the both of us, he's even offered to video tape a cooking show with me for YouTube and this blog in support of my endeavors. But the truth of the matter is....we're lazy. We like to watch movies on the couch and we like to...eat....and go out to places where we....sit. Neither of us are SUPER active people. Neither of us really...ENJOY working out. We'd much rather cuddle and watch television or something. And it's not like we're really any different than most people. MOST people would prefer cuddles and movies over...strenuous exercise. It's just that...on my own, I'm healthier. Because my boyfriend doesn't have a health problem like I do so he can drink soda and he can eat candy and I'm really....not supposed to. But if he's doing it...then I'm going to do it too. And that's my fault for having zero will power. I really do have...no will power. I need to work on that.

What I really need to do is draw on the lessons that I learned in my 10 month phase of being single and alone. I CANNOT let my significant other's actions become MY actions. I am my own person. I make the decision whether to eat the chips or not. I make the decision whether to drink the soda or not. At the end of the day, I'm still in control of my life even if there are a few more distractions. I just seem to be really good at getting lost in my relationships. Like..really good. I just have less will power when someone else is doing it. Temptation if you will.

I will gladly say that after writing this entry I DID weigh myself and I have stayed below 200 lbs. I haven't gained any weight...which is surprising. I was pretty sure the mass amounts of King Kake, daiquiris, party food, Wendy's, and chips that I ingested over the break would have done me in. But for now...I have been spared. I really have to work on this though, even if it is a little bit a day. Otherwise I'm going to look like a jackass on my own blog. And we can't have that now can we?

Here's to kicking into Lent a little late...

The Hungry Hungry Health Nut